Shadow of a Nightmare (Villanelle)

 

Avigayil F


I am the nightmare you forget when you awake

The shallow end of every sigh

I am the reason that broken hearts break

 

When your pounding heart insists the waking world is fake

That demons lurk in the shadows in the corners of your eye

I am the nightmare you forget when you awake

 

I am desolation; I don’t give, I take

Tell me—why do you even try?

I am the reason that broken hearts break

 

Let your bones tremble, let your limbs quake

But I tell you—there is nothing awry

I am the nightmare you forget when you awake

 

The wanting inside you is wide as a lake

But don’t you dare cry

I am the reason that broken hearts break

 

I am the fear you cannot shake

The tears you can never dry

I am the nightmare you forget when you awake

I am the reason that broken hearts break


 

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